August Left

I took my truck into the shop yesterday. Unfortunately, they gave me a quote that it might take upwards of a month to get the truck repaired. That really sucks. Especially this week since the weather is going to be in the mid 60s on all of my days off. Oh well.

I got really sick again last night. I tried these new fiber bowl recipes I found online and I did not tolerate them at all. Anything that adds too much bulk to my diet is really bad for my Crohn’s. I think I have so much scar tissue at this point I have to be really careful about what I eat. Today I’m feeling better.

Emotionally, things are slowly feeling a little better. I don’t find myself up all night long anymore thinking about things. I think I’m getting to the point where I have accepted that my ex made her choices and now we both just have to live with them.

There is a part of me that wonders if she will reach out again. It was just a pattern over the last 6 months of her pulling away and coming back so I don’t really know what to expect. It still hurts to think about how she handled things and what that did to our relationship. Especially now that I am never going to speak to her again, nothing about how this ended was cordial.

I don’t really have much in the way of life updates. I’m still just trying my best to get in a better spot financially, the truck getting hit was a hiccup but thankfully it sounds like nothing is out of my pocket. I’m exercising and eating well. Work is whatever. I really am at a point in my life where I question if I am even happy in my career, but that could be circumstantial.

I sit here and wait patiently for the warm weather. I hope it helps me break out of this funk that I feel like I’ve been sitting in forever. But today was just another day that was here and gone.

Thanks for reading.