August Left

I fly home in two days. I’m really trying to focus on getting through the next two shifts then I’ll be off for a week. I work night shift, and nights are difficult. Most of the time they’re quiet and in the early hours it leaves a lot of time to think about things.

I’ve been trying to come up with what the next 365 days of my life are going to look like. Am I going to stay in Colorado? Do I keep this job or try to find something that makes me happier? My job contract is up in June and my lease is done in August. That gives me lots of time to think things over so I can make the right decision.

It’s challenging working at the same place as her. We usually work the same days and it’s almost inevitable that we’ll have to interact with each other at some point. I saw her this morning. We were both stopped at an intersection leaving work. I waved and she waved back, and then we went our separate ways. I don’t want her to think we’re doing no contact out of anger. I’m not angry and I hope she isn’t either.

I think a challenge I want to set for myself is to take more photos. Documenting the new moments of my life and including them in this blog. I’ll take pictures traveling home and while I’m in Canada. It will be nice to have new memories to look back on instead of my now half empty camera roll that is full of holes from a time I’m trying to move on from. Thanks for reading.