August Left

I just had the worst couple days. I made myself a chicken dinner the other night. Chicken, vegetables, rice. I got so sick afterwords. I usually have issues with my Crohn’s after I eat a large meal. I get this awful pressure in my abdomen. And I know it’s a small bowel obstruction. I’ve had a few of them already.

I was up all night vomiting, severe abdominal pain. I had thought about going to the emergency room but thankfully it started to get better. But I am tired today. I didn’t sleep much at all last night. I am scheduled to work tonight.

I wanted to call my ex for help. Just some kind of comfort. But I haven’t heard from her in a couple days. So it felt wrong to text her. It kind of just goes back to what I mentioned in my last post. She is never the one to reach out and check in. She is off today and it’s been silence.

I work a stretch of three shifts this weekend. I had plans to go for a small trip or something next week when I was off but it snowed a lot here and it doesn’t motivate me to try to drive the snowy highways.

I know she is supposed to go up skiing with her best friend this weekend so who knows when I’m going to see or hear from her. I sometimes think of myself as pathetic not being okay with the silence.

For now I’m just going to keep my head down and try to get through the next few days of work. Thanks for reading.