August Left

Happy Easter. I have my last shift of the week tonight. We are having a potluck at work so we can all celebrate Easter together. That makes the day feel a little more special while we are away from our loved ones.

The last two days have been pretty steady. I’ve been quite tired during my shifts. I’m finally getting over some stomach issues that were bothering me this week so maybe the extra fatigue is just me finally recovering fully.

The weather this week is supposed to be warm and sunny. I got some recommendations from a coworker of a couple places to check out just west of me. Another lake to do some fishing, a couple patio bars to see, and a nice place to go ride my motorcycle.

I’ve taken my motorcycle to work every night this week. It’s been nice to finally get a lot of time to ride and start getting more comfortable on it. I haven’t done any long rides yet, just to the park or around the neighborhood I live in. So probably this week I will try and go see something new.

I should continue the job searching on my off days too. Put out a couple more applications to different hospital systems and I will look into other sates to see what kind of job postings are out there.

The time to make all these decisions is getting here so quickly. In a way I feel a little overwhelmed by it all, but I know in the end it’s going to be what’s best for me. Moving away from this hospital and disappearing in a way. Getting myself back.

I am reflecting today. This time last year I remember visiting some of my ex’s family for Easter. It was nice to go spend time with people who enjoyed our company. I wonder if she is spending the day with those same people this year.

There is still a heaviness on my heart, but day by day it gets a little easier to carry.

Thanks for reading.