August Left

I went camping over the weekend with Jen. It was nice to get away for a couple days and go do something new. It was really windy which made it hard to keep a fire going and it got really cold at night but we persevered.

I worked a shift Sunday and picked up tonight to cover a shift for my coworker who needed tomorrow off for a class he wants to take. So my schedule has been kind of all over the place. It hasn’t been that bad though. It has broken up the monotony of my usual weekend shifts. It also has given me a chance to have some weekend days off which lets me hangout with Jen on her off days.

And now it’s the beginning of June which means my deadline for switching jobs is soon approaching. I think timing wise I need to wait a little into July so I get my medication for the month while I still have health insurance. Then I’ll at least have a month of feeling good while the new job starts, my new insurance starts, etc.

There is going to be a lot of mental preparation that goes into getting myself ready to make this switch. New coworkers, new job location, new work flow. It’s going to be a busy couple of months but it will be worth it for not only just my finances but my peace of mind surrounding this whole chapter of my life. The chapter that is finally coming to an end.

It’s been really enjoyable here in Colorado the past couple weeks. While it still seems like the weather is figuring itself out, it’s reinforced why I had reservations about just packing up and leaving the state. Even just the trip down to go camping over the weekend showed me how beautiful the state is. I really enjoy it here even with the little bit of exposure I’ve had to getting out and experiencing the outdoors this summer.

I plan to just keep working as much as I can tolerate the next few weeks. Try to keep seeing Jen and investing in my hobbies to get myself back on my feet. It’s my brother’s birthday in a couple days and so I’ll be sending him a gift in the mail. I wish I could go spend the weekend with him but he’s busy with work as planting season is starting to pick up back home.

I still have a sore spot regarding everything that has gone on the last couple of months but that wound is starting to heal over. I am still sitting with feelings of disbelief that it all just has to disappear and I carry on trying to act like none of it ever happened. But it seems like that is the only way for all of this to get better.

My next big question is what does my life look like in the next 2, 5, 10 years? Right now just crafting the foundation for the next big parts of my life that hopefully gets figured out as my life moves forward in the right direction.

I’ll keep trying. It’s gotten me this far.

Thanks for reading.