August Left

I finished my stretch of three shifts for the weekend. It feels good to back on my usual schedule and know I have four days off this week before I have to return to work.

Tonight I’m just taking it easy, I just ordered some takeout and am going to relax with a movie or some video games and brainstorm what I want to do this week. The forecast says rain and thunderstorms but it looks like it’s more likely to rain in the evening so I should be in the clear to get out and do some things.

I had been looking at driving down to Crested Butte to see the wild flowers. It’s a pretty big drive, 200 miles or just about 4 hours away. But with the way the weather has been the last couple weeks, it would make for a really nice day trip with a possible camp out at one of the campgrounds nearby.

And honestly it’s moments like these I wish I had someone to go with. It would be really cool to share that experience with someone. I wonder if those are just growing pains of missing being in a relationship, or if those are normal feelings to have about something like this.

Regardless I think it’s important for me to push through feeling like that and go anyways. I need to create experiences for myself and getting out there and doing the things that I want to do is the best way to do that.

I’ll probably do the same thing I did last week and pack up the camera and fishing rod and head down exploring on the way. I was looking at picking up a fly kit to use in conjunction with my regular tackle, I might have more luck with the trout that way.

I’ve been feeling really back and forth about my next move is. It’s so nice working at this current job. It’s easy, my coworkers are really great, it’s close to where I’m living now. But on the other hand, me changing jobs gets me more money and gets me away from my ex so she is completely removed from my life.

I’m still going to reach out to the recruiter this week and have her send me the opening she has available. Just to get the ball rolling so I at least try to stay true to of this current job leaving mid-July if that’s ultimately what I decide to do.

Lots of soul searching to be done and honestly, I’m scared. But discomfort helps you grow. So I’ll do my best to be brave and keep moving forward.

Thanks for reading.